I made a blog! Now what?

Hello friends.

I am trying to live a good life.  Not 'good' in the sense of wealth and pretty things, but 'good' as in pure, kind, honest, humble etc....  It's hard!

When I began this journey, I heard the word 'Ahimsa' and I liked it.  I like the way it sounds, I thought the word should be in "The Lion King", like it belonged in Mufasa's mouth.
 
I learned that 'Ahimsa' means non-violence, and, on my quest to be the perfect yogi, the best yogi, I decided to adapt it into my daily life. I was going to embody all things good, I was going to channel my inner Mother Teresa, Buddha, Krishna and all the rest of the the enlightened beings and I was determined to be non-violent.
I walked home from the studio that day and I smiled at the homeless man asking for change, I struck up a conversation with a lady in ugly shoes, I threw away all toiletries and house cleaning products that were not natural and I became a vegetarian.  Easy as that!  I am now non-violent, check that off the list, and let's move on to Truthfulness.

Now if you know me and have known me for a while you can find the comedy in this.  I am super competitive, to the extent that I will sometimes not even TRY something new, just in case I don't do it well.  I have come to learn that there is no such thing as the perfect yogi or the best yogi.  There is no trophy or medal that I can put on the fireplace for everyone to admire and say, "Gee, Jacqui, You won Best Yogi, Congratulations!"  This is something I am going to have to embody, this is something so much bigger, so much harder than anything I have done before.

I thought that smiling at the homeless man was enough.  Even though I was thinking, "Rather him than me", it was okay because I was showing him kindness.  Ummm, fail.  The same for the lady in the ugly shoes, being outwardly kind to someone does not atone you for the unkind thought.  You can't go searching for the people that you feel have bad hair and poor taste and then show them kindness, this is apparently not Ahimsa (damn!).  I am working on my unkind thoughts, it's going to be a lifetime before I can check that off my list.

Please join me on my journey to becoming 'good'.  I am no longer trying to be the best, I simply want to be good, and believe me, that's hard enough!

PS:  This is not the face of Ahimsa.

xoxoxox.
Jacqui.